You gladly gave me everything you had and more
You craved my happiness
When you made me feel joy it made you smile
but now I feel your stress
So here we are.
It is summer.
There you are, and here I am.
I hate the summer.
Kind of.
I hate it because I do not get to see anyone as much.
I do like not having to worry about school, but still.
I worry that the gap between me and you will widen.
And I do not want that.
Am I just some thing you used to get around?
The person you step on to get higher?
You liar.
Liar.
Liar.
And fool.
There is no me anymore. He's burned away.
Hope or pain?
My choice?
I cannot have either one.
I always pick one, and the other comes along.
How long will this go on?
How long will I be forced to bleed all over the floor for you?
And I still don't understand your intent.
Go fuck somebody already. I serve you no purpose in that area, so go find someone who can.
Dammit.
I am so fucked up.
